#and you need to find new media besides walking skittles and calamari

[hyp3rfixation-h3ll]

your pac-man reputation? forgive me if i'm wrong (i'm far too old for tumblr at this point i've got 3 kids and i shouldn't be liking a show for children) i've loved pmatga for a long,long time since it came out.i'm very sorry but your near obsession with sunny is really off-putting and that and your blog in general gives me what my niece says is "creepy/nasty vibes".i'm sorry but you need to work on your personality in order to be taken seriously

So uh, I got this ask in my inbox like last night or so but since I was going to bed I didn’t bother answering it until today!!

I appreciate the critque, fella, but I wanna explain a lot of things like why I draw Sunny so much and why I made this blog in the first place.

I found PMATGA about 5 years ago. I was 9 at the time and found it through Netflix and ended up officially joining the fandom on DeviantART in 2017. I was 11 and at the time I was obsessed with Pacster’s parents and their past and finding out what happened to them. I particularly grew fond of Sunny, not only because of her design but the potential she had and what little of her personality was shown made me feel comforted. Especially when I was at my lowest points in life and I was heartbroken from a multitude of emotional issues. This funky little show about circles, ghosts and aliens and this specific character ESPECIALLY helped a lot. So when I found out that she and Zac were both underused characters I did all I could to get people to remember that they’re important too! I want people to appreciate all or the cast members of the show, even the minor one off characters and the ones that are used as plot points. At some point I ended up becoming emotionally attached to the character so I decided to start going by the alias of Sunn/Sunny, and while not a lot of people call me that cuz some of my oldest internet friends remember my oldest user to date on DA, a lot of people do and it makes me feel happy and comfortable! So in a way I also kin with this character as a form of both fun and also to cope with issues in my life.

I started this blog to share my love for this specific character, Sunny, because she’s never used that often in artworks or fanfics and I wanna change that. I want people to care about her more. I want people to know that she’s important to the story. Sunny deserved better in canon, and I’m here to make sure that she gets the “better” development that she SHOULD have gotten.

As for the “obsession” thing, I can understand that it can be somewhat offputting but in my bio it says that I am on the ASD (Autism) Spectrum, professionally diagnosed with Asperger’s Syndrome in the summer of June 2017. Part of being autistic is hyperfixations. It’s when you are able to focus on a character or show or game or book for a LONG period of time. This can include years, which is what I’ve had since I was 11. And I cannot control what I hyperfixate over. As much as I would like to, so I can get into new media, it’s REALLY hard for me to do so since nothing much will ever interest me as Ghostly Adventures does. The only other things I’ve been hyperfixated on are Just Shapes and Beats and How to Rule the Universe. I do not know if you either didn’t read by bio or if the accent colour I chose is too pastel-y so it’s illegible, but I did put that in my bio so people can understand that if I have some odd behaviours, then that’s why. It doesn’t excuse it but it’s a reason and my hyperfixations are relatively harmless. Do not police neurodivergent people on what they can and cannot hyperfixate on, if it’s clear that the object or piece of media they’re fixated on is completely harmless and isn’t physically, mentally or emotionally hurting anyone.

Also, it’s incredibly rude that you would have the audacity to even tell me that my blog has “creepy/nasty” vibes but then to also say that I need to “work on my personality to be taken seriously”. I know that I have my own issues that I will work out in time, and I know that I can come off as extremly emotional to the point where it can be annoying, but I’m trying to work around that and find a way to control my emotions better. My personality as is is arguably decent. I know that I need to work on other aspects of myself and I’m working on that. It is not your place to come here, into my space and police me on what I can and cannot fixate on, and in the same breath also tell me that I need to work on my personality. You, whoever made this post, need to stop being a hyperfixation cop, and if you’re also neurodivergent stop being hypocritical. Let people enjoy their special interests/hyperfixations and leave them alone.

Again, people with autism/ADHD or neurodivergent people in general do not control their hyperfixations and what they get emotionally attached to. If I’m hyperfixated on Pac-Man, that’s the hyperfixation and only time will tell if I will find a piece of media that interests me as much as Pac-Man or JSAB or HTRTU. It is not your place to tell me what I should and shouldn’t do on MY blog, and if you have a problem with my content, that’s a you problem and it’s not a me problem. You need to work on your attitude and I’m going to continue doing what I love!

so for a quick tl/dr of this WHOLE long post:

And people who don’t even properly know me shouldn’t be telling me what I can and cannot hyperfixate on if it’s clear my fixations aren’t hurting anyone or causing general harm to anybody.